Hey guise! My unreal name is Ruka, and I’m a 17 y/y college student of SPUQC under the course of BSIT. Basically yet obviously, my interests are anime, games, and cosplaying as everyone knows. So yeah, these are all the things that you should know. :)

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Sorry, this is going to be an immature rant.

My effin mother shouted at me the moment I brought out Tsubaki's weapon and said,

"Bakit dyan sa anime na yan ang dami mo time? Bakit hindi mo na lang asikasuhin pag-aaral mo?"
Translation: "Why do you find time in that anime? Why don't you just ponder more on your studies?"

Skeptical, in my mind I was saying,

"Because I love anime, and I'm obsessed with it you bitch. Hindi mo maiintindihan yun kasi matanda ka na. Gago."
Translation: "Because I love anime, I'm obsessed with it you bitch. You won't understand because you're too old enough."

Gago is a bad word.

I have never thought bad about my parents ever since I left 1st year highschool.
Yeah I admit that I was such a cunt when I was a freshie-sophomore, but I left my bad self because I have realized something.

But stabbing my pride and interests is too much for me to handle.
So I talked back to her, unconsiously.
With the death stare that I have given to a fucking person when I was in 3rd year that made me push her to the road.
And I regret that I did not push her when a large truck came by. :))
It's sad.

I'm not the daughter who talks back, because I am scared of what my father has to say.
No wait let me rephrase that-
I'm scared that I might end up alone in this conversation.
Even though if it's just pinning-out my side or my opinion, I hate losing.
I have lost for so many times, and I get frustrated with it.

And starting now, I want to aim her fucking goal.
Number one you say?
Let's see, if I get exceptional grades, I would definitely shove it in your throat and make you kneel for things that you need.

Sometimes I feel that I am not that improtant in the family anymore.
I am the only one studying my ass out after all.
So my father still have to work for thousands of fees he has to pay for my studies.
It gets through me all the time.
All fucking time when I feel so useless.

I don't get good grades..
OH DID I TELL EVERYONE THAT I ALMOST FAILED MATHEMATICS?
I got 76!
For the first time in my life!
And now I think I'm going to fail lots of subject this year because, I admit, that I have explored Manila before I study and go to sleep.
I don't want to be clueless, sorry. :))

I just wished I knew how to copy answers and not be ashamed of myself.
In my case, I do copy at times but not to the extent that I do it ALL THE TIME.
I still study even though I may not look like the type of person to study.
I do get hurt when I compare my scores to everyone.

I hate college.
I hate the people that came and went out of my college years.

I miss highschool.
I miss my highschool friends.
Even though the others are such an asshole, I don't care. For once in my life, they thought me how to value something. How to unite with such different and out-of-reach personalities.


Thank you for reading my rant. =)) back to top?