Hey guise! My unreal name is Ruka, and I’m a 17 y/y college student of SPUQC under the course of BSIT. Basically yet obviously, my interests are anime, games, and cosplaying as everyone knows. So yeah, these are all the things that you should know. :)

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He's doing it on purpose!
Well, I'm sorry if I thought that things won't work out between us.
Our place is really far from theirs so I did not accept his feelings.
He knows that I like him, and vice versa.
But even though 9 months have already passed, he's still haunting me in my mind.

Now I kinda regret cutting our connections.

He's good. Always been.

It would have been okay for me but he chose a lover with the same name as me.
If you were in my place, wouldn't it tick you off? Just a bit?
=((

The funny thing is, I get these disturbing feelings inside me but I don't even like him anymore.
Do I?

Another thing..

An ex suddenly added me in Facebook.
Won't elaborate more about it since I think he did not consider me as one. 8D

Personal reasons I must say.

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MUSIC!

I love it. Who doesn't?

Yesterday (while admiring the pretty views at Rockwell), our househelpers' and I stumbled upon Powerstation's glittery arcades. Too bad I did not have the chance to play Tekken 6 or DMX4, they suggested we go to the Karaoke stalls instead.

W-wait.. But I'm not the "singing" person! They insisted to go in with me and I gave up.
At first, I listened to them sing but they kept bugging me again. This time, to sing!

OKAAY?
So I tried Taylor Swift's Love Story without knowing how the other tunes go and..
They loved my voice, unexpectedly.
Deep inside of me, I kinda liked it too.

Not quite bad for a first timer in the Karaoke machine.

BUT WAIT-- What pursued me is the song Lollipop of 2NE1.
I sang and laughed out loud with them haha!

There were few Japanese songs that I know too like Inori~You Raise Me Up, Kokoro no Tamago, LIFE and such but I'm not sure about the lyrics of some lines.

OH AND WOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT THERE'S Abingdon Boys School's Nephilim in it? I mean, whoa. Nephilim is not even a famous/anime song but it's there. It makes me want to try covering few anime songs that I like since, singing is not that bad after all. back to top?

Sorry for not updating minna-sama.
But my addiction for Hot Blooded Woman is finally over.
It has come this far- today will be the start of everything in a normal pace.

Hwang Mi Ri's works are really something.
I used to admire Honggane and Cutie Boy, but now that I have read HBW, it contributed something from my life.
And so, I will announce my Top 5 Manga/Manhwa's of all Time..


10th - Escape
by Kyuugou



9th - Kanojo wo Mamoru 51 no Houhou
by Furuya Usamaru



8th - Cutie Boy
by Hwang Mi Ri



7th - Kimi wa Petto
by Yayoi Ogawa


6th - Cat Street
by Yoko Kamio

5th - Fairy Tail
by Hiro Mashima

4th - Sidooh
by Takahashi Tsutomu



3rd - Hot Blooded Woman
by Hwang Mi Ri


2nd - Girl in Heels
by Chun Kye Young


1st - Naruto
by Masashi Kimoto

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Updates for the Day!

* Received inay Hideki's message that we'll be meeting up for the lolita costume rental at Friday
* Hwang Mi Ri's He's Dedicated to Roses manhwa is finally finished!
* Likes a highschool guy from the Inter-High IT Quiz Bee just this morning. He's Japanese!
* Played God of War, Grand Theft Auto and Soul Calibur like hell
* DID NOT CLASSES OK?
* Forgot my earphones at Ticia's
* Unintentionally erased all the music in my iPod

Most likely, these routines will be going on until the 20th of November since the ICT Roadshow will end by that day.

Remember the girl I've been telling you all about before? Teh cute girl who dug up my obsession for BJD's? Seme Meoki has a blog nao! And I hope she keeps it longer than her previous accounts (since they get deleted XD) back to top?

You're not crazy, I am.
Ladies and gentlemen.. Someone just told me that he likes me.
Out of all the possible people, it has to be the friend who comforted me when my ex passed away.
I mean, sure the feelings are very fresh and youthful but I don't think of it in a whole new level.
You know like - love and relationships?

So now he kept calling me dense after he held my hand countless times for every moment that we were together. But to me, it's normal. When a close friend keeps the physical contact intact, don't you also think that it's normal? For me, it is. For him? It's something deeper.

This is confusing me.

I'm positively sure that he will find out about this post but he really needs to see the feelings that I have right now for him. As of now, he's a very special friend. Sure he's a year younger than me so I treat him as a little brother. I think I still do. And I hope it stays that way.

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Oh noes it's happening!
Of how good HDTR's new chapter is, it's how bad Boarding House of Hunks' new update is.
SO SAD.
I wonder how Ji Hoo will face the problem.. but he should have faith with Jae Yoo!
I'm going to get mad at Ji Hoo if he does not believe Jae Yoo but oh well, I think he'd never listen anyway since it's Tae Il, the one who stole his ex.

So anyway, besides that..
Just came back home from Marikina Market in one piece, oh yeah!
My Amy Sorel costume is now being processed (though it cost me a lot) and paid the installment.
By Monday, I'm able to pick it up but there's still one problem..


The net stockings and animal fur!
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IT FINALLY CAME.
(This post is entirely about Hwang Mi Ri's manhwa, He's Dedicated to Roses)
Please don't read anything further than this one if you have not read Chapter 41 in Mangafox.
But.. finally, the climax is going on.
Does this mean that He's Dedicated to Roses has it's end near?

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Seriously, I don't understand anymore.
Class schedule is what I'm talking about.

Remember the time when my mom and I had a rough time standing up on our ass to wait for our turn to make our damn schedule? And I also had to go back lots of times in school during our semester break to check up on my schedule and constantly change it since it kept appearing wrong when it gets printed out.

All of those mean nothing now.

One of our Major prof gave us the permanent schedule we'll be attending. As I have calculated in my mind at school, we were cut in a half again. I ended up at the block where lots of guys are in.. No wait, make that- almost all of the guys in the course. The only girls in class are me, Christine and Zhelle.

It's very frustrating in my part. I want to be with my college friends but I got stuck in the guys' block. Anyway, I still have Zhelle so my hopes are still up.

Our schedule for one week only:


Will post my schedule next week for next, next week onwards.
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The long opinions made by CheckeredTongue at Mangafox's forums had my attention for quite a while (since this noon) and the moment I finished reading her discussion, I had to share my opinion too. As a drop-lister of HDTR, it still gives me the chills on how I dropped the no.1 manga of Mangafox (and it's a shoujo, of all the love).

People say Ida should just kick everyone's asses.
Hmmm. I'm not quite sure about that. I've been there, done that. I know that it's not always so easy to just resort to violence. True, if Ida kicked their asses they'd probably be scared of her, but Mimi, being her prideful "powerful" self, would go to her parents, whine and bitch, and then when Ida goes home, bam, a whole crapload of drama. No happy ending.

Ida needs to stick up for herself.
She does. She really does. But she's too ignorant right now to do that. She has no clue what the heck is going on, that Mimi can't touch her, who Naru really is, that Shinah knows who she is so at least she can be Yodah around him.. nothing. And when you know nothing, you can't do anything.

I read from a post by someone that Ida can't just automatically change. Er.... not sure about that. She was able to change quickly when she was younger. She defied Mimi when she was Yodah. Ah, true, she was Yodah, but Mimi knew she was Ida, so as Yodah she still might as well have been that geeky schoolgirl Ida.

Can't she change her looks?
Really... can't she? All she has to do is at least put her hair down and stop wearing glasses. My eyes would be so much happier if she did cause I really hate looking at her geeky image. Psh.. she might look like Yodah but like people keep repeating about her, she could just deny it. Because Ida does a whole lot of denying. Actually, just about everyone in this manga denies a whole lot of stuff. *sigh* Where is the honesty.. really. Have they never been taught the Six Pillars of Character in school? :(

She shouldn't have done that to Naru.
Baw. I don't really care much about that. Maybe I should, but....myeh. Like a few people pointed, everything goes down to her family. Not Naru, her family. Sure, she may love Naru but.. obviously she cares for her family more that she would listen to Mimi and dump him like that. Naru only complicates it. That secretary is probably gonna dig up dirt on Yodah and therefore lead right back to Ida and then.. what help has Naru done to help her? Not much, since he's the reason Mimi is so determined to ruin their lives. I don't know about you, but this story is more about "finding the courage to stand up and be yourself", as theatrical as that sounds, and not about being with the one you really love. So eh... yeah. I could care less about her relationship with Naru.

What is with that fugly guy?
Really, I don't get it. It provides no comedic relief for me, it only complicates things and it has nothing to do with this story whatsoever anyways! And she could just dump the bastard, cause he's not currently being punched and kicked by that guy. Ida confused me there, cause she obviously doesn't give a rat's ass about that guy, but she would stand up for him like that. Maybe that's just cause I would never do that for someone I don't care about, so I can't understand her reason for doing it. Or maybe I forgot what happened in those panels? Hmmm.. I might have to go check.

Shinah did tell Ida that she has nothing to worry about, right?
If I remember correctly he hugged her and told her he'll back her up and stuff? Aren't I right. Anyone, anyone?

Romance between Mimi and whoever.
Don't get it. So many little side stories here and there.. it makes it so more complex and makes it so longer... just don't get it.

Realistic/Unrealistic
People keep saying how unrealistic it would be for her problems to just dissolve. Well, if she keeps getting problems, then it's going to be unrealistic at all for any of her problems to go away, regardless of how it gets solved. Actually, if you want to be really realistic, a girl in her position probably would have sold herself into a brothel or just run away already. We see it all the time people. Not that far-fetched.

I'm rather surprised she was able to keep her identity for so long. All those secrets and lies.. gawd. I was never able to keep my double life a secret for long in the past. So maybe that's just me being jealous of her being able to have pulled it off for so long. ^___^;;;;;

Why doesn't Shinah blow the secret?
I don't know. I don't see why he shouldn't. Maybe cause since he's related to Mimi it might blow back on his family. Eh. dunno.

And my answer went like..

People say Ida should just kick everyone's asses.
* I know right? She's very strong at the first part of the manhwa right? You're average fighting chick(as Hwang Mi Ri would label her main girl character) heroine but there will always be something that would stop her from doing so. For example, her parents right? As your average loving daughter, it's Ida's duty to protect her family in the outside world. I mean, look at how everybody treats her at school.


Ida needs to stick up for herself.
* I agree that she does, but only at selected people. She can't stick up for herself in front of Mimi! Literally, she can but Mimi will probably go bitching at her parents again and Ida's family will be kicked out. Their lives will be miserable if that happened.

Can't she change her looks?
* I'm not sure why she's keeping this nerdy look, I don't get it either. But there are some instances wherein she might get discovered as Yodah if she kept it down. There are other options too, like.. Wear it without the braid but still keep the pigtails. Or I don't know, maybe she likes it that way? XD

She shouldn't have done that to Naru.
* Of course she should not have but as you've said, it'll all go down to her family. But didn't Shinah already said that it'll be alright? Though Ida did not get what Shinah meant by that, haha! What Ida needs is a bestfriend like Shinah who would help her with problems like this.

What is with that fugly guy?
* If it's for entertainment then he's not making me laugh. It.. annoys me, haha!

Shinah did tell Ida that she has nothing to worry about, right?
* Yes he did but Ida has no idea what he is talking about, since he pulled Ida into his to make her his slave/maid . I hope that Ida would come to realize what it means. :(

Romance between Mimi and whoever.
* To tell you all the truth, I skipped the whole part about Mimi and this biker guy who claims her as his. Seriously, Mimi will always be Mimi.

Realistic/Unrealistic
* People poeople, anything may happen today. This is a modern world. If women were sold for slavery in Egypt before, why would it not happen these days? Look at the powerful people right now. They can buy anything with their money. And about her problem.. Well I don't know, ask Mimi and she'll go bitching at us and probably ask her parents to make us eat dog food haha.

Why doesn't Shinah blow the secret?
* Maybe he's waiting for the right time. Shinah knows how Mimi is too eager to get revenge on Naru, and now that Mimi knows who Yodah really is, he maybe counting the things Mimi is doing at Ida and if it's way too mean already, he'll step out and clear everything. Or maybe Shinah has other plans for him and Ida? :33

Should have made an essay about He's Dedicated to Roses hoho~ My reply is very long, I can't believe that I wrote it all. 8D

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Today, I will be meeting Kesoo to purchase her Goth Lolita cos.
I'm going to use it at AME no JIDAI if ever.
Since I have been eyeing if for quite a while (before she even bought it), now is the chance to buy it. She said that she'll be waiting at Starbucks again..
OH NOEEES.
Makes me want to buy a latte.
BUT NOOO~
Must save money for Kururu cos.

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Spent my whole day playing The Mercenaries in Resident Evil 5 and Fat Princess.
They're all online actually since playing with other people all over the world kinda excites me.
Well, who does not?
Anyway, here's a screenshot of The Mercenaries plus the whole cast.




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My personality according to Quizbox.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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S/N: Partially true, except for my view in success part. I mean, I am not so sure about the course I am taking in. But I do hope it settles down in the near future. Programming is fun, but I don't like to study. Really. It's enough to learn and study about something, but what I don't like are getting grades and evaluation out of it. That is my only line of defense for this quiz.
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Just finished answering a poll in Facebook. Now I'm regretting it. But the photos under the captions that I chose are too irresistible that I ended up like this- hungry. Basically.. I kinda skipped dinner, haha. It's unintentional but I felt the urge to go up earlier to sleep- fail! At least I ate the crab soup so I'm not that hungry enough to go out and buy cookies. So desperate huh? =))

Craving for these foods right now:







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One word for Mega Masquerade: SATISFYING.
It is all thanks to my parents and my lovely bishie partner, fa Enola.
Last night was one of the memorable nights that I had.


I did not actually plan to join on the catwalk but fa Enola signed us up (knowing that we are supposed to ramp only) but as we watched the 1st couple, they had a skit.. AND THEY WERE DANCING.

So I was like.. WHUTTS? This was not the idea I had in my mind but fa Enola is very creative enough to create a cute skit. My worries were gone by then, since I trust her. ^^

I loved Markee, Mai & Kenkoy's skit, because it was funny. I love having laughs. :))

Besides the main contest, there were lots of Suigintou clones! I believe we are 4 in all but then I saw another Suigintou cosplayer that is new to me at a certain someone's Multiply site, so that makes us 5. Talk about WHOA.


Also met lots of new friends such as Jazzie, Yuki, Touya, L (and the rest of Ueki group) and a lot more, thanks to fa Enola's connections again. I finally met Luisa-san too and introduced me to Sai (been admiring Sai, really) but we did not have a chance to take photos together because I don't have a cam with me. T_T

More photos to come!
Have a happy Halloween guys. ♥ back to top?