Hey guise! My unreal name is Ruka, and I’m a 17 y/y college student of SPUQC under the course of BSIT. Basically yet obviously, my interests are anime, games, and cosplaying as everyone knows. So yeah, these are all the things that you should know. :)

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There's something wrong with me.

There's something in my head, that tells me something I could do that I should do.
But if I did, I might cause lots of trouble.
And I don't want that to happen.

I'm kinda sick of studying.
For what? Where do I stand in the future?
=____="

The future is so scary. back to top?

Why are things so complicated?

You mature as you grow up, but you get too emotionally fucked up to understand such harsh things happening in this world.

Don't give out your 100% trust to people, even if they're your best-est friends and family. Eventually, they'd swallow you, and betray you, or get sick of you.

We study for 18-20 years. What do you get out of it? Lucky are the ones who could still manage to keep themselves living.

Complain about things. You'll never run out of them.

There are no such things such as equal and peace. When we talk about equality, you'd only see those in Mathematics. Equality in human kind never exists. You say everyone is equal? Look around the people who makes a living in the street corners. Family gathering for a place under the tree to hide themselves for the rain. Big houses with 2-3 people inside. You say peace? Ever since the world has come to a beginning, Eve accidentally/purposely ate the apple even though God told her not to. Why? Didn't she trust God? Regardless of the curiosity, didn't she ever think that eventually it will be found out, and suffer the consequences?

I would love to live in the mid 50-60's. Such healthy and innocent years. Though flaws might be hidden, everything looks peaceful.

Why?

We all live to die. So why not die as early as possible? Yes, there are so much things to discover. Needless. We suffer the pain of growing up. Reminisce the good and bad memories we had as we grew older.

How do things turn right, and then suddenly go wrong? back to top?

Resident Evil: The Darkside Chronicles
Characters: Claire Redfield, Leon Kennedy, Steve Burnside
Supporting Characters: Ada Wong, Sherry Birkin
Appearances: Albert Wesker, Ashford siblings, Chris Redfield
Opposite Chapters: Resident Evil 2, Resident Evil: Code Veronica
Setting: Raccoon City, Rockfort Island
Game Platform: Nintendo Wii

Basically, I have nothing against this particular game even if Ada Wong makes her appearance. The only thing that got my head is the gaming platform. So it's confirmed as Wii. Why, of all other platforms, why Wii?

For avid Wii users who are going to read this, please excuse my comments and manner in this post. Personally, I see Wii as a child's platform. Truth to be told, the reason why I think that way is because half of my little nephews has this console. Mainly, the games are either cutsie or for exercising. It's such a waste that RE: DSC will be focusing on Wii, I do hope there's a PS3 CD of it. I am a die-hard Resident Evil gamer and I think I have played almost all of it's games. Sure, my nephew has a Wii but I'm not really fond of On-rail shooting games, especially when it's supposed have a sensor. I'm more of the couch gamer/joystick user.

On the other back of my other hand, I'm happy that Claire has another game! I love Claire so much. Even if the platform contrasts my perception, I won't say anything anymore as long as she has a part on a game. Truly, I am thankful that Capcom team still keeps her.

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Just started watching Koizora's J-Drama series last Sunday.
And much to my surprise, I finished it not so long ago.
Such a sad story, but it brought happiness somehow.
I'm not fund of these kinds of ending, but I'm feeling that it's similar to what's happening to me right now.. I tried it out.
I have read the manga before and stopped, because it was so sad.




This is Tahara Mika-chan! Girls like her are the ones I really admire the most. Very sweet, naive, innocent and patient. But that is just my opinion though. She chose to be with Hiroki, even in his remaining days.



And this is Sakurai Hiroki-san, the idiot who made Mika-chan a very stronger girl. He's the typical bad-ass you'd see in your highschool, but look how strong and caring he is. To think if such guy would really exist in this world, I'd definitely won't let him go. It's sad that he had limited time, I was hoping Mika and him would stay together forever but no. :(

Right now I'm listening to Koizora's ending theme.
The message is sad but the song is so beautiful.

Yasashii kaze ga fuku itsumo no michi de
Anata ni ae rutoka sonna koto de ii
Chiisa na kodou no yure ga omoi ni kasanari
Shizuka ni tokeru no o tada matteiru
Hito wa doushite kotae o motomeru no?
Watashi wa kore de shiawase na no ni shiawase na no ni

Ai no uta ga　kikoetan da
Sore wa　chiisa na ai ga
Hohoemu you ni　yorisou you na
Yasashii oto gashita
Toki wa nagare　yume wa nagare
Ironna katachi　kawattemo
Anata ga tada　koko ni ireba
Sore dake de ii

Anata no yobu koe ni　kizukeba toki ni wa
Ushita mono ni tada　te o nobasu dake

Toki wa doushite　owari o tsugeru no?
Egaita ima wa ashita no sora ni
Tsuzuite iru no ni

Ai no uta ga　kikoetan da
Sore wa　chiisa na ai ga
Hitotsu　hitotsu　matataku you na
Itoshii oto gashita
Toki to tomo ni　ano hi no hoshi
Namida de nagarete shimatte mo
Anata ga tada　koko ni ireba　
Sore dakede ii

Negai wa toki ni tooku
Muri ni tsukamo utoshitemo
Te moto o suri nukete yuku kedo
Sono mama kieteyuku you na
Ookina mono yori
Chiisa na ai ni kizukeba

Itsuka toki ga　hana o sakashi
Yagate ooki na ai ga
Utau you ni　kanaderu you ni
Futari o tsutsumu darou

Ai no uta ga　kikoetan da
Sore wa　chiisa na ai ga
Hohoemu you ni　yori sou you na
Yasashii oto gashita
Toki wa nagare　yume wa nagare
Ironna katachi　kawattemo
Anata ga tada koko ni ireba
Sore dake de ii

Anata ga ite soba de warau
Sore dake de ii

"If I could have 3 wishes, I wouldn't wish for the stars, the moon, the riches and this life. But for 25 hours a day, 8 days a week, and 13 months a year to spend a longer time with you." back to top?

Last night was traumatic. And I was not expecting it, and I don't think anybody did. It's not the typical probinsyana getting lost in the city scene. I am not so sure about that but that's how my rescuers see it. Thankfully, I got home in one piece at 10:23PM in the evening. My brother and father picked me up in front of Greenwich at Pasig.

How the hell did I get to Pasig?

I have no idea either.
But did they believe me?
NO.

Yesterday's acquaintance party is getting boring and I decided to go home earlier with Donna. Suddenly the rain started to pour again, and I was mentally cursing by that time since I dislike getting wet by the rain especially when I have to go home.

While waiting for a jeep to Stop&Shop, I was texting few friends from AHC and SPUQC to tell them to take care when a jeep stopped in front of me. It has a Stop&Shop sign so I quickly got in to avoid the miserable sensation of pouring rain. At J.Ruiz, I immediately grabbed the house keys to get myself ready to open the gates in case nobody opens it for me, but then a lady and her daughter got on and told the driver that she's going to Recto.

Recto.

My mind was processing that time.
That's the last station in LRT-02, and if I am not mistaken, I went there last Friday to go to LRT-01(Central) to meet Clarissa. Still on the right track.

Half-way from the ride, my ass was getting touchy and I can't help but notice the over-pass and highways we've passed by. I was getting worried and the places are not familiar to me. But I kept my pride to myself and continued with the journey.

Then I saw buses.
Big ones; Genesis, and the such.
Where the hell am I?

The woman across me did not know either, instead, asked me where I was going. I kindly and calmly replied, "Stop and Shop po." Wide eyes were the last reaction that I saw from her. "Dear malayo na yun! Bumaba ka na lang tapos tumawid ka, sakay ka sa SM Sta. Mesa dadaan Stop and Shop yun." and the driver was like "Tumawid ka na lang tapos sakay sa kahit anong jeep, lahat naman dumadaan sa S&S."

Okay so I was like-
Who am I going to believe? DD:
Well, they have points and they're all leading to Sta. Mesa anyway but how do I know if I'm on the right track? I don't even know how to cross the road for Christ's sake, but I ran anyway. It really dark and the rain kept pouring.

Basically, I followed the driver's advice since ..he is a driver and he goes to places so he knows where.

I got on the 2nd jeep, not knowing where it lead since he said that it all goes to Stop and Shop.

BUT IT DIDN'T, or was I blinded last night?
I know what S&S looks like and I see Don Bosco College and Manilao banners around. Yaya JM texted and I forgot what he sent me but I remembered texting him and Aldreen that I'm seeing Marilao everywhere, and I haven't been there before. My phone battery is half-dead and I kept praying that it won't turn off so I can call someone. And I did call Alex since he's studying there. Indeed, it was the exact place he was studying, at Marilao. He's also asking me what I was doing there but the call got cut off. Luckily, it wasn't because of my phone being dead.

Great. Now I have 4.50php in my account balance, I don't have any credits to be able to call someone. Good thing I still have Unlitxt that time but I was in Mandaluyong already! That's where Marlon, Daemon, and fa Hyde lives! x__X

I got really, REALLY scared.
Aldreen told me directions to go back but I don't know how and where that particular place was so I let the wheels take me to where it's going. Deep inside, I was really scared. It's almost 9pm and I promised to go home by 8pm, but I left the school by 7pm right?

Finally, my pride itched and asked the nearest guy if I can insert my sim card to his phone. I wanted to laugh when he stared at me suspiciously. I told him my phone was dead and I really need to call, and the name I looked for was Boss Mac (since Aldreen's using it) but heck, it wasn't there. I got more crazy and frantic at the thought of my recent contacts not in my sim. One of my stupidity, actually. Then the guy told me his stop was near, so I had to return the phone to him and ask another. The nearest one is this woman beside me. I asked her politely but she.. declined in the manner where she really didn't trust me. I got pissed and is almost bursting because the place I am is really really far now. I was not in Mandaluyong anymore and I really need to call someone to at least pick me up or something.

-- This ends here. My enthusiasm to post all the details have flown away from my eating. Long isn't it? But I'd like to thank the people who have been concerned last night. Too bad I failed at going home by myself but really, I can. If not only my father is here in Sta. Mesa, I can still manage to go home even if it took me 11pm but no. Probably, they'd be calling my phone but it's dead so you see, my choice is to take the weaker option. back to top?